Aaaaurora
Thursday, August 8, 2013
Hi guys, it's Thursday. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to the Muslims. I'm in a fair mood right now. In fact, seeing most of my friends travelling, I'm envy. I desperately want to go somewhere too, anywhere, rather than staying at home, facing the desktop and composing this post. I want to yell. Take me to the beach,
d. Take me anywhere. Boredom stroke me. Lone. y.
I missed those moments, when we had our meal together, when we bought some new clothes, when we walked across each street in lethargy. I think I should do something to cover my solitude. Perhaps practise guitar would help, or I should complete my homework. Revise ? I would rather lost control of myself indulging in the world of games. Evade from the reality, of where I should have been. I was so stressed out, I am.
Did you realise that, standing on the top of mountain provoke the fear deep inside your heart. You'll scare that - you'll fall into pieces, or maybe dust, or with no corpse lol. But what you can do is to stable your step and enjoy the picturesque view. Perhaps you can look upon the azura blue sky, the bright sun, the colourful rainbow, the fluffy white clouds and the rare aurora ( we don't have it here in Malaysia).
Labels: the life
Hush push rush.
Wednesday, July 10, 2013
I begin to hate July. There are so many assignments, too many tasks. Lethargy strikes my heart, setting rage off me. Oral assessments, monthly test, competitions etc. keep on booming in my mind. Life, sincerely, I do need some rest, a free weekend, maybe. I knew I can't handle these much. I'm not like some of my
super friends, I'm not. I'm just a typical girl. An ordinary girl who wants to lead an
extraordinary life.
Hush hush rush. This is life. No matter how people criticize you, no matter how they throw their hurtful remarks on you, please remember you're still you. Life goes on, with tears with joy. I'm contented, shall I be ? I have a good life, just enough friends to make me laugh. I don't need a lot of friends, a few is better. Because I acknowledged that gossip hurts a lot. Some time, we call an
unfamiliar friend, a
friend. Friend is someone who is close to you in a relationship, someone who you're familiar with. Therefore, shall we call the "unfamiliar" people, a
friend ?
Opps, somehow something great did happened in July, which surprised me. I won in a Chinese poem writing competition. And I get into the S.I.R spelling competition ! Kinda nervous for that.
Let's hope my friends will win in the Bakat Chung Hwa. Claps*
Labels: July, the life
melancholic
Friday, June 14, 2013
Heel ya guys, I was sentimental last night, reminiscing the past, brought up by my guitar teacher. Tears rolling in my pair of eyes, I tried not to speak much, before it was too late - before my tears ran down my cheek. I managed to hold back. Let the tears fade away into their original position, which they shouldn't have exist. I remember the quote :
Crying isn't showing your weakness, it's showing you've been strong for too long. It's sort of self-comforting, but it didn't matter because it really meant something to me. I have realized that I had been strong for too long. Camouflage myself so that I look strong, fierce and scaring. My world was once into pieces. If time was to be claimed for healing it, nah. Time passes, things change, me either. No one will ever be the same again, it's how we transform into someone
better. Or I called it mature. The wound is still there, or perhaps we call it a
scar.
He told me to pray, which I've never actually did before. I clearly knew that prayer makes myself feel better, but it doesn't help much. I knew the rules and regulations of life. To let go. Holding aback directly means torturing yourself. As it's pointless to live a miserable life, why not plastered a smile on your face in everyday life ? As a result, I don't pray. I have had enough self-comforting action that maybe I should try on the self-confronting action. Confront the problem and try to solve'em. To my dismay, I don't have the courage, I'm just a timid and coward girl. Rawr.
Labels: the life
This is life.
Friday, April 5, 2013
Hello, it's the
254th posts of my blog. I'm kinda haughty of my determination in managing this blog. I start blogging since I'm in Standard Six, and now I'm in Form Four. You'll never realize how time really flies until you look back, trying to change the past. Nevertheless, you'll fail your attempts as it is irreversible and yeah, you don't have the ability to rewrite the past. And you begin to regret, "
if only..". If only I have done it at first, if only I didn't make it, if only I grabbed the chance, myriad of
if only haunt you. You're lost in thoughts but then everything is unchangeable. You messed everything up.
Tada, it's what we called
'life'. We human beings mess up things almost everyday. It's the point whether to admit and be responsible of. I admit that I'm coward, I'm not ready to challenges in my life. I still couldn't overcome my fear of public speaking. Sometime I cringe with fear and the phobia overtakes me, leaving me blank in mind and shaking tremendously (Well, not that serious haha).
I'm done with my oral assessment 1. I tried to speak fluently and smoothly as I could, trying to remember all the text and remain as calm as possible. I forgot a few sentences and then I jumped on to another, making'em sound connected and ended my story in grace. Because I knew the teacher never bother to look at the piece of oral evident I wrote. So, it's okay for me to make mistakes or even, create some sentences in my mind to add into my text. She didn't aware of it. And this is what that disappointed me all this way. Frankly speaking, I love English but her attitude is ruining my interest and enthusiasm. Desperation is bubbling within me. In the first test i got only 50 something in my English and this does lessen my confidence though I knew my English has never been excellent. I'm making a tremendous effort to boost up my language. I knew I can do it step by step. Bless me guys.
It's all for today, take your sweet time and enjoy the miracles in you life. xoxo.
Labels: oral, the life
The life
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Bonjour friends :) I'm still on holiday, but have nothing done. I don't have revision, only fun and games. My brother and I have a lot of fun playing the PC game,
the game of the life by
Hasbro, for free. The life is a board game, mainly about the actual life. College or career. High salary or low salary. Big house or small house. Babies and mates. The top winner is the one who gain the most money at the end of the game. This is indeed the fun one. And there is puzzle game, too, which I'm quite good in and love the most. For me, logic is understanding. I believe in logic and I learn it well. For example, Science & Mathematics, which are merely based on logic, and I score well in those subjects. I pass History, Geography and Life Skills with great grade mostly. Understanding is scoring. Another etiquette for me :)
Anyway, I have a good holiday and I will never gone hungry at home. I stuffed myself with the chocolates my mum brought, which I have mentioned in the previous post. And Bak Kua, some dried-and-grilled pork meat. Starvation is absent. I scare of gaining weight out of the daylight although I'm thin right now. It must be a nightmare for me if I put on some weight suddenly. Girls don't like putting on weight, don't they ? I'll cross my finger, hoping my weight is still. In the other hand, I don't want to be underweight. It's abnormal, I know. I've mess up my mind. Thanks for reading my life, will be writing soon, goodbye. Enjoy your days.
Labels: gain weight, the life
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