Jia Xing.
23 y/o.
University of Malaya.
A reader. A traveler.
Constantly pursuing.
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My bed of roses
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Howdy. If you were to read my previous post, you were informed that I was on hiatus mode. After what seemed like an eternity, the final examination was a page of history in my life.
I've never felt so relieved in my Form 4 life. I could not deny the fact that being a student leads a hectic lifestyle.
My heart was pounding so hard when the papers were returned back. I desperately wanted an A for every subject, be it A+, A or A-. The dream, however, shattered into pieces. I got my English Paper 1 and I scored 57 out of 85 marks. It indicated that my English is poor. As for a perfectionist, it's not just poor, it's unduly miserable. I tried to convince myself that it's okay. IT'S NOT OKAY. Frankly speaking, it is as if washing your wound with salt. In order to heal your wound, you have to endure the excruciating pain. It is all right not having to score an A in Mandarin and Bahasa Melayu. My grammatical errors are in vast numbers ( for a Form 4 student).
After a few introspection , I really need to improve my English. I mentioned about the Spell It Right spelling competition in the last few entries. Nevertheless, I failed to get into the semi-final. I heard my heart thudding so loud and beating so fast that I felt like getting off the stage as soon as possible. My legs were trembling and my voice was as tiny as an ant. I had the thought to overcome my fear of public speaking. I tried to muster all my courage to voice out confidently, which I failed my attempts. Or was it normal to feel panic when speaking in front of the crowd ? I didn't know. I don't know. I perceived that I was "a proverbial frog under the coconut shell" that most of the Malays were able to spell out those tricky words correctly. I was so ashamed of that.
As a result of that, I need to boost up my confidence and maybe voice out my opinion about someone who is bitching around me. Not to mention pulling up my socks. Life is not always a bed of roses.
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Hiatus
Friday, September 13, 2013
Good morning world, yeah I knew, I knew. It had been a fortnight until now. I'm afraid I'm going on hiatus right after this. I sincerely don't have the mood to bother my blog. I'm having some serious problem with my phone. Well, it gets hot when I play. And it takes about 4-5 hours to fully charged, which is really unusual and irritating. I'm outraged because of that. I thought that it would be fine after I sent it to Samsung Centre to have it formatted. It turned out that it doesn't go really 'hot' when in use but the battery problem just wouldn't fix. Instead, if I could, I would want to roar at them. They sounded nonchalant ( Of course, it's not their phones anyway, why on earth do they have to care ? ). My apology for those harsh words but I just can't help to calm myself down. Despite the deep breaths, it's an futile effort. I know, it's as though there's no use crying over split milk. Be rational. I need to take my mind off this.
As I mentioned above, I'm going on a hiatus. Thus, this post will be the first and the last for September. I will be back on October, someday. The final exam is significant and I can't bear myself to make any more error. Not any more. Tags will be replied when I'm free.
Life goes on as usual. Soon, it's the doleful separation. And next year, it will be us. Time flies, and we grow.
My ego.
Monday, May 20, 2013
Phewww. Should I heave a sigh of relieve ? Our mid year examination is finally over. I should emphasize on finally. I was nervous about the exam and this added a lot of stress on me. My mind was freaked out. But I have my concept of life - never to burn the midnight oil. Although I study at the eleventh hours, I don't stay up late at night. Not until 2 a.m. The wee hour means at which the time our body need a rest - after a hard day of working.
Lethargy knocked me down. I kept on yawning in the noisy class. I tried to have a nap but in vain. I just couldn't simply bend my back and lie my head on the table. Well, it's not comfortable. The cacophony in the class vibrated my eardrum. I wished that the weather could be cold, so that my intention to sleep could be a success. After failing my attempts, I turned to have a little chit chat with my friends. We talked a lot. Guess we were hilarious about the exam which ended today.
I was planning for my holiday. First plan would be complete all of the homework, of course. It's undeniable that homework plays an important role in my life, especially my school life. It's vital for improvement. I will be going for a trip to Bangkok in this holiday ! My parents have been planning it for quite a long time, since last year till now. And eventually it's May's holiday ! I'm filled with excitement !
But looking back at my effort for the examination, I have no idea what have I done. My rank will surely drop this time. Guess everybody is dropping with me LOL. It's a self-comfort thought. I got 94% for my Mathematics paper, which I made a few careless mistakes and was deducted a few marks. Well, the small careless mistakes mean a world to me. No doubt I can never be satisfied about my condition or results. I want more, I yearn for higher marks. It's a way to pull my socks up. Boost my confidence or destroy my pride.
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Irony
Thursday, March 7, 2013
Good evening earthlings, the sun rises and sets, the clouds never stop, the wind wanders around the world, I too, changing from time to time. Reminiscence. Imagine the vivid transformation of my personal characters to who I'm today. How much that I have been going through - you've no idea what I'm capable of. Life is all about accepting and letting go. Walk away elegantly and have no regrets.
I've been through the February Assessment safe and sound. I face the results with satisfactory but not victory. This is because something bloody hell happened - I only scored 68 for my English subject. It's not tearing me to pieces because I've expected the grade since I handed in the paper. I didn't pay much attention to the objective part but more onto comprehension, literature component and summary. Unfortunately, the indolent English teacher idly and simply doesn't want to mark the latter parts and only sums up the total marks of objective and information transfers. I end up with the lowest marks I have ever scored in my English language. With the accompany of this slothful teacher, my English isn't going to improve. Poor me.
To my surprise, I scored 100 in the Chinese paper, it's not because I'm smart and clever though the paper isn't very difficult. I wonder : my classmate who said the paper is easy-peasy, didn't score full marks in it, how irony is it ? She made me despise her in her attitude and personal. I sincerely don't have good feelings towards her. As a result, I don't need her to be nice to me. It's not necessary and I don't deserve it.
School life is busier than ever, St John did some improvement by hiring some trainers. They did a good job. I've learnt a lot from'em, this is what I want.
Good night my friends :) Have a nice day.
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Idiotic action
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Howdy friends, I'm finally back. The exam is a past now. I got 6 mistakes in the Geography paper, which mean I have 90% for the paper. Well, it's okay, neither I'm delirious with joy nor depressed. Because I try not to care. I'll put my best for every exam, every challenges I face in life. Despite people's gossiping and criticizing, I hope I'm still me. Infinite.
Apparently, I'm not satisfied with the condition when examination is carrying on. The noise and gossips lingering around in the hall and some thought it's funny to attract teachers' attention. For me, this is indeed an foolish action, which I would say, that person who try to make noise purposely is idiotic. I couldn't stand the childishly action. Frankly speaking, I really couldn't bear it. Not even for a second.
Well, get a life. Recently, Lee Chong Wei has succeeded to bring Malaysia a silver medal, which is the pride of Malaysians. Although he didn't manage to beat Lin Dan, he has tried his best, the best of all. We, Malaysians can see the effort he put it in order to beat him. Don't be desperate, we should now be glad.
Anyway, I have replied all of the tags just now ! Wow, it's quite tiring, there're a lot of them. But I'm glad that you people do leave a tag, follow my blog and so on. Thank you. It's all for today, I'm coming to relaxation. Goodbye pals. Early goodnight, too.
Great Relief
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Howdy friends ! I'm no longer
The Mathematics paper wasn't tricky but yeah, I got the marks this afternoon and was totally gobsmacked and dumbfounded. I got only 88% for Maths, a pang of disappointment banged me down. It wasn't the best of me. I should try harder next time, in the mid-term examination, perhaps.
Aside from Maths, English is really tricky and quite difficult. History, Geography and KH sound okay. Mandarin and Bahasa Melayu ddidn't treat me nicely -.-
Guess I'll be submitting skins soon :D Stay tune if you like my layout.
Time flies, without realisation, it is almost at the end of February. It also means that, PMR is round the corner day after day. *Scream* Lol. I hope I really could pass it with flying colors.
你离开后，天空不再蔚蓝/
The big relief.
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Okay then, it's Saturday again. I'm in a slightly pleasure to have the Maths tuition class skipped. Haha, I told mum that I won't be back to Wong Suk's tuition any more. After two years (Form 1 & 2), I finally realised that Maths tuition doesn't help me much. What I mostly do when Maths tuition was : Wong Suk is teaching while I'm busy with doing another Chapter of the work book, it sounds like he is teaching others while I'm one of the exceptions which done faster than others. So, in the nutshell, I gave up Maths tuition as my brother said Form 3's Maths is easy-peasy too.
Well, EOY is eventually ended, it's such a big relief :) I don't need to face a lot of books most of the time, I hope I'd be all right when I receive my results. Recently I received some subject's result. They did freak me out, especially Sejarah. I was like : "What the fudge ? I got only 75% !" But then I'm satisfied, though it's a little bit bad, it's okay that I scored an A. I'm just feeling lucky that I almost score B in it, but I didn't at last. Appreciated.
& I'm pretty sure that I'd score B in Malay and Chinese, not that it's tough, but I doubt myself, I'm not good in Languages. Not at now. To be perfectly honest, I wrote so badly in English 2, Section A. I wrote the report in 1 page only, not too much, it's absolutely not enough for me (I mean the amount of words), but then I score 22/30 in that section. I doubt that the
Anyway, I'll be reply all the tags once I online, no more hiatus until next year. PMR is coming soon as time flies. Freak. LOL. At last, I'd like to thank for all the followers, I'm quite surprised that I found 29 followers today. THANKS GUYS :) Appreciated it so much ! Au Revoir dude !
Satisfication grab my heart.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Well, I was
Fine, let don't talk about it. As you know, the ranking of July Test was published. OKAY, it's ... it's alright. Such a kind of big relief. & I was, finally satisfied. Yay ~ -.-
By the way, check out here ! Baboo broke the her chair and the screw was crooked. Well, what a pity. Everybody in the class was then shocked, and burst into laughter XDD HAHAHA :b
Anyway, thanks for dropping by and please kindly leave a tag !
Bloody vice versa.
Monday, August 1, 2011
Get a life. I don't even wanna mention anything about EXAM, I bet the result is gonna to be more dreadful than what I consider now. Sometimes I ever think : Why can't I get straight As in all my exams ? Fine, every day is gonna to be a page of HISTORY.
So, something about my dear life. Yeah, honestly .. I dreamed about death a few days ago. Relate with my family member. I can't bear to think about it if it's true. Hopefully it wasn't :D Without realization, I found that I'm getting more nervous than usual. I have no idea with it. Rawr. I think of relaxing my mind. To be more myself, the one I used to be.
#Notes : I've started writing my personal diary, only for myself. It's more private because I suppose I need some privacy to write about my feelings, my thoughts & everything I liked. But if some one find it, it's okay -.- Hope I don't mind it.
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