I sincerely apologize for my silence. Some times, I just don't feel like talking. Because there are something bothering me, my feeling wavering deep inside my heart, and my head spinning for reasons to calm myself down. Thus, I might not be rational enough in reality.

I'm sorry for being vexatious, for being annoying, for being inconsiderate and most of all, for being me. I understand that nobody is perfect, I am nobody, therefore I must be perfect. Nah, just kidding. Okay, nobody is perfect, I do have lots and lots of flaws : judgemental, impatient, selfish etc, and I hope that I am being accepted for being me. It's not that if I were to judge you for being too "you", you are then going to change yourself for me. So the same logic applies to me as well. I'm simply not going to change myself because of anybody (as I mention earlier I am selfish, and perhaps a little bit bitchy). 

With the ups and downs of life, I grow, undergoing metamorphosis, finding the true "me". Well, I wonder if I leave "me" somewhere. Life is a journey of knowing the unknowns. I'm grateful that I'm here in Penang Matriculation College, surrounded by a few friends who we can talk about almost anything in life. Frankly speaking, I seldom feel like crying living my life far from hometown. The times I cried were the times I was really depressed and desperate due to my friends and classmates, and the time I was really sick. In short, I'm quite an independent girl huh?  

Back to the point of me being silent. There are quite a number of times I behave this way, which I myself do not like it too. But I'm scared that if I talk in this condition, I will have to camouflage my feelings, faking a smile and shamming myself to look OK, which I literally HATE. Consequently, I urge myself to be sincere, for I can't accept any insincerity from others. Do forgive me.

Life's good if you are optimistic. Looking forward for 29th of April. 

As I'm the stars you can't fathom into constellations.  

With loves,

Me.