Alien
Sunday, March 23, 2014
     I got dumped.  This is what I feel every day, which is also the epic fail in my life.  It's as if I have neither everything in the world.  I feel sorry looking at someone who is alone and I guess these are the expression of others when looking at me (?)  Mostly I feel alienated or more approximately I am alienated.  I become that kind of person who people call 'beh join'.  I shed tears easily.  Because I speak the wrong word I quieten myself and observe.  I can't go crazy like they do, I don't like to either.  I would love myself to be more rational and thinkable. 
I'm glad I'm leaving soon, after all these years.  I'm way too sensitive to spot anything and the feeling haunts me.  I feel pretty terrible, living in a world full of camouflage.  I meet people who don't like their friends and gossip about their friends at the back.  Certainly, I will undergo 
split personality soon.  Knowing too much isn't that good, or vice versa isn't good as well.  I'm having contradiction because of these things.
When holiday comes, I over-think.  Shoot me.
 
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